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Sunday, October 29, 2006
Since I have been home I have thought of the real world, which to me is the environment I happen to be in at the moment; what I have to deal with, what surrounds me. It can also be the world I create or am aware of. I can be of this world of T.V., computers, radio, papers (Mass Media bombarding my senses with, money, sex and states of fear) or in it. I can be in it and with all it’s stuff and of the world I create or see. Now that is a master that can be in this world and of the one he creates or sees.
It is easy for a person that lives on a mt. has no family, no job, has food and shelter to be a saint. A person that has committed his life to a family, has a job, lives in a city, has to deal with people and day to day living and is a saint, now that is a saint.
This part of the trail has been more of a challenge to stay in my commitment due to the challenges of the real world and it’s distractions. It is neat when I can still see that there are no accidents and hear that little voice over the din of the distractions.
I notice in the woods I ponder a notion much longer and get clarity, simplicity on it. In this world I haven’t given it as much time then I am on to the next distraction. How do the troops find time to deal with their issues of the world they came from to this world of reality?
I am in this world and work to correct one of the things I am responsible for because of my ignorance, laziness, and apathy. I have et it happen, it has destroyed our youth and undermines the greatness of this country.
Monday, October 30, 2006
Went to a friends house party, it is always nice to be with friends, people I trust and can share with. How many of the troops coming home have that? Are there people there for them to share and trust now that the world they once called home has become alien to them?
Tuesday, October 31, 2006
I have become more aware of how little value I used to place on my word; I was made aware as I spent hours today waiting on people who had given me their word. It would be easy to become of this world again as I have just been given permission to do the same by their actions, if I chose. If I do that, then who do I become?
I have gotten my truck on the road and have started cleaning up around my property for the town. Is it a freedom or a mandate? What freedom are our children fighting for, how do I repay them?
Went to lunch with a friend, she is into holistic healing. She is the one that got me set up with things to take to heal the bone bruises of my feet and supplements for optimum health. We talked about a documented case of a woman with 5 personalities; each personality had a different aliment. One had diabetes, one wore glasses, one was allergic to the carpet which showed that she created all her physical attributes. Where is the switch I touch for my back, for my eye sight; it doesn’t mater my diet it is my thinking? Where is the switch the troop switch to counter act P.T.S.D.?
Wednesday, November 1, 2006
Called the town court, gave them my name, tax map #, they said there was no court date. Called the code enforcer and talked to him, he told me to keep fixing the violations and that they are under Adam Zach Inc.
Thursday, November 2, 2006
I called the court back and was unable to talk to anyone. I called Terry Contractors who gave me a manhole cover to replace the one that someone stole out of my parking lot while I was away.
Friday, November 3, 2006
Called the court system and found out I was supposed to be in court yesterday. They said I had to drive there to get a new date, they wouldn’t give it to me over the phone. I drove thee and they handed me a slip of paper with the date (guess that is part of my punishment for not being in court, I had no notice, wonder if they ever sent one?), I wonder if this is another freedom we bestow upon the troops coming home or another one they fought for? This is the kind of stuff that used to piss me off then later it would wear me down to the point where I would say why bother, who cares, so what. Now I realize with that attitude I am part of the problem, so now it is an opportunity for me act in a way that will bring change.
Saturday, November 4, 2006
Went to a seminar on healing and hear a few things that resonated with me, I have to have a space open and to be present that things will happen thru me. When I see God in people or their essence I allow them to be more of that. What is it that I see in the troops when they come home, what do I allow them to be more of?
Also that night I went to a play given by a woman who beat cancer using holistic methods, using that as the story for her play. It was very educational about foods, healing and attitudes that aren’t mainstream. What is my attitude about the troops, is it mainstream, what is that?
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